04 Jun Gratefulness
Gratefulness… All the time I am reminded to be grateful for the things I have and don’t have. Many times, we can get lax and start complaining about what we don’t have and lose sight of what we actually have. I am grateful for so many things that If I were to write a list it would be boring to my audience. Sometimes you need to lose everything to realize what you can be thankful for.
One day I was living my life, driving my BMW, living on the beach, had a great job and then one day, everything was taken from me. When I say everything, I mean everything. My clothes, my work, my money, my family, my comfortable life, my freedom. As I adapted into my new environment of losing everything, I learned to appreciate the little things and always told myself it could be worse.
Some people are worse off than I am at the moment. When I think about one person in particular, it breaks me because I don’t know why he has to go through so much and have no one in his life to help him. One thing I do know is that his experience will definitely build his character and will be the most grateful person.
I sometimes ask God why certain people have to go through hard moments in life while others don’t have to experience any hardship. I find it unfair. How do I encourage someone who is far off than I am? How do I tell them that they are going to be great, when their current situation is shitty?
My current circumstance is not all that fair, but I am doing the best I can by staying positive. What I find difficult right now is the lack of freedom that I wish I had. Many times, we take for granted the liberties we have, especially here in this country, yet my government has limited my freedom because you know, “I’m a criminal.” How is my current circumstance not fair?
Well, I enjoy spending time with my family. We are not perfect, and we have our issues, but one thing I know is that we have each other’s backs. I have been separated from them for a while and when I do spend my time with them, I cherish every second I am with them. I wish I could do more things with my family but, that can happen at the moment. I look forward to spending that time in the future when this circumstance is long gone.
Despite every chaotic thing going on in my life I am grateful for those who help me stay focused on my goals. It’s not easy when the world is against you. One thing I know is that I am a fighter. I am not going to allow anyone, or anything get in the way of accomplishing my goals. I have removed negative people from my life and only want those who are positive around me.
As I mentioned earlier, I have too much to be grateful for. When I start feeling down or depressed, I remind myself of how worse it could be. I have been through hell and back. I know what it’s like to feel unwanted, abandoned, rejected, ashamed, lonely, forgotten, and no one reaching out that I don’t want to be like that towards others. I know everything I have gone through is for a purpose to encourage others who need to be pushed or just reminded that it could be worse.
My apologies if I seem all over the place, but I am just writing what is currently on my mind.
“Remember, for everything that you have lost, you have gained something else. Without the dark, you would never see the stars.”
Thank you for reading and many thinks to those who have a positive impact in my life.